WEDNESDAY, JULY 10, 2013
Oops, I forgot I signed up for Mila Ferra Always Do The Thing That Scares You blogfest in celebration of the release of Mila's book titled Spiral.
"In SPIRAL, Nessa confronts her fears about getting close to Aron by reminding herself of her father's motto: "Always do the thing that scares you." It's probably a saying all of us could use from time to time, so for this blogfest, post about a time that you decided to do something even though it scared you, either to get over that fear or because you knew it would be good for you."
I've lived a basically ordinary life, with the usual scary life events that are laughed about, regretted or accepted as part of the journey. In the scheme of things however, one event stands out as an extra-ordinary accomplishment.
See, I'm short, barely over five foot, with small feet (ladies size 5) and chubby stumps instead of legs. I've had no problem buying and driving the small cars that everyone told me suited me best because I like looking over, not through, the steering wheel. We owned a Ford Aerostar for a while and it always made me nervous to drive the huge van, especially with the babies in the back.
Shortly after my last divorce, I accepted a job in a new city I'd never been to before. It was about a 3 hour drive in a car from my hometown of Oroville to Susanville, and between the two job interviews, and a couple days of house-hunting and signing a lease, I'd made the trip four or five times alone. I was comfortable enough with the drive up the canyon. The scary step, however, was loading up everything I owned (including the two cats and a 35 gallon fish tank with fish still in it) in a 14 foot U-haul, shoving the three kids inside, and THEN attaching my car to the tow hitch.
Did I mention I'd never driven anything bigger than a mini-van?
The truck had automatic transmission, with big mirrors, power seats, a/c and a fabulous radio. The boys (15 and 13) had hooked up the car (I was driving a Ford Escort at the time), battened down the hatches, climbed up next to the Bug (age 6) and proclaimed "we're all gonna die." I agreed, dropped it drive and slowly pulled out into traffic with my over 20 foot load.
I'd like to embellish this with a lot of harrowing, near death escapes up the frequently narrow and winding but completely paved highway through some of the most beautiful mountain scenery you'll ever see; but really, once I got out of town and onto the highway, the drive went pretty smooth. Not counting the pot holes that had our heads bumping the the ceiling at times, and a few too wide turns that put us in the gravel shoulder, or riding in the turn out lanes when the two lane looked too small for me and the oncoming logging truck to pass by safely (yes yes, the road was plenty wide enough), it was an uneventful trip. Except when the radio picked up nothing but static and I had to answer questions about what would happen when we got there and if we were ever coming back . .
There was a moment when I was facing the cab of the truck, last chance to back out - my 20 year old daughter had just jumped out of the truck with her newborn baby and ran to a phone booth to call her boyfriend and make up. Everyone had told me I couldn't do it, and there would be no shame in admitting defeat and making another attempt at making things work out in the safety of my family and familiar surroundings. I thought of taking my daughter's change of heart as a sign I belonged here.
But my new life waited where that truck was destined to go, so I had to prove everyone - most importantly myself - wrong in what I could and could not do on my own . . .
So tell me: do you Always Do The Thing That Scares You?
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The summary for the book is:
Nessa Cavanaugh, psychology student, knows how to stay on an even keel. Despite the urging of her mother and her academic advisor to get a life and have some fun, “all work and no play” sums up her plan to survive her grueling internship year at a children's hospital. She doesn't want to end up like her father, whose constant ups and downs broke her family, and avoiding unnecessary emotional entanglements is a must.
Then she (literally) runs into Dr. Aron Lindstrom in the middle of her disastrous first day on the job. The attraction is instant—and terrifying. Nessa knows she should stay away—especially when she finds out he has a reputation for being a player—but Aron is brilliant, intense, and as sexy as they come. When he challenges her to take a chance on him, her plans to stay focused on work start to crumble.
But what begins as passion takes on a dangerous edge, becoming an emotional roller coaster that’s frighteningly familiar. As things spiral out of control, Nessa must decide whether she should hold on for the ride or run … even if it means leaving her heart behind.
Click here to read the first chapter on Mila's blog and for more info about the author.
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WEDNESDAY, JULY 10, 2013