Wednesday, June 6, 2012
Wow, can you believe the first week in June is nearly over? And it's June already, and school is out for the summer in two days. And, and, and . .
. . Its time again for the monthly Insecure Writers Support Group hosted by the elusive Ninja Captain Alex J Cavanaugh. Purpose: To share and encourage. Writers can express doubts and concerns without fear of appearing foolish or weak. Those who have been through the fire can offer assistance and guidance. It’s a safe haven for insecure writers of all kinds!
I'm afraid I'm not very encouraging this week, so I'm writing about one of my worst fears. My fear is simply: that I've gone as far with my writing as its going to go.
I remember several years ago when I started my first writing project. A short story that kept growing as certain details needed filling in (yeah, many of you have heard that before) until 10 months later, I had a completed trilogy. Book one is about 89k, book two is somewhere around 68k, and book three is a whopping 118k. Impressed?
That was back when I had a year of unemployment to dedicate to the task of first draft, and I didn't concern myself much with editing as I wrote. The story was everything. Learning the craft came later.
Over the last three years I've barely been able to complete a short story. I have lots of inspiration, and great ideas, and some awesome starts (even if I say so myself), but to go from idea, to draft, to editing/revision, to submission. I'm just not a finisher for anything longer than 1800 to 2000 words.
Three or four weeks ago I wrote out a story for the Second Avenue Second Hand anthology. Over six thousand words in practically every minute of a four day weekend. Whew! You know how many times I wanted to quit, do something, anything else? I started thinking the yard needed mowed, flowerbeds weeded, the blinds (the thin cheapy things) needed cleaned, the garage needed cleaned. Seriously, these type chores do not suit me; I have an ex-husband who handles that stuff for a twelve pack of Bud Light and a good steak dinner (out, not my cooking).
But I stuck with it, finished the first draft, and submitted to my ftf crit group. But even this wasn't a complete new writing. I added a new beginning (about 3,000 words), beefed up the middle plot (roughly 1800 more words), and tweaked at the end. It still needs a lot of revision (and soon, as the submission deadline is 8/21) but I'm just happy to have completed a long short story.
So there you have it: my biggest fear right now is never being able to finish a short story project, let alone another novel.
How about you folks; ever worry you have so many things started you will never finish one? Ever feel like you'd rather do ANYTHING except writing a draft? Is 6k words what you produce in a day (or a few hours)?
Don't worry about making me jealous of your awesome daily word-count - I already am :) Hearing your accomplishments WILL pick up my mood. I like knowing other authors are meeting their goals.
Sorry, don't expect my to post the link code for ISWG - you'd never find my comments thingy. Go here for the linky at Alex's blog to read other participants. And please keep in mind Alex requests each participant read 5 or 10 new-to-you bloggers in addition to your normal circles to support and meet new bloggers.